Worries.... time flying!!

And in the blink of an eye, another month has sadly passed us by..

I don't know why, but I really quite like the month of June. It's a holiday month. When we were kids, we had the June schoolbreak.

Now, when June comes around, traffic is so much better ( no school rush for parents ), it's quieter in the mornings ( no silly beeping school buses at 0630h ! ) Everything just feels more relaxed. Chai also comes back from Melbourne during the break, so it's a nice change.

Today is already the last day of June. And I have passed 36 weeks. Oh gosh. Like it or not, in another 3 weeks or so Annika is coming. I don't think I am ready for it this time. So many things still not sorted out yet.

1. Where are we going to spend the first 'month'? For Madison, we stayed at my parents' place so that we would have easy access to care and help. This time round, would Madison have difficulty sleeping in the house? Would she keep waking up at night? Would it be too noisy-- the 3 dogs there do bark in the middle of the night. Ideally she should sleep in her room at our own place, but could I cope with the new baby and her?

2. How is she going to get to school once I deliver? Would I be fit enough to drag myself out and drive her to school? And then pick her up ? All the while co-ordinating the new baby's routine/eating/sleeping?

3. What about the clinic? I think at this stage it'll probably go without a doctor for a month or so, then I'll start up again on an adhoc basis.

4. New house.... it's actually going to take longer than we expected to clear the paperwork. We met up with Mandy, the banker from HSBC to sort out the bank loan, and then the lawyer to sign some papers on Monday. It'll still take another 10-12 weeks before everything is processed, so we can't get the keys to even start planning any renovations.

5. With the new baby and work, would it actually be easier to be based initially at Papillon? Considering that the current apartment ( although small ) is right next to the practice. But the way things are going, we probably would have to keep staying there for a few months after the baby arrives until the renovations are done. In that case, we can't rent Papillon out yet for awhile until everything is sorted out. Thank goodness the bank didn't want to lend us more money!! This way we should be able to afford both mortages.

6. I haven't even sorted out the new baby's lodgings! We can't decide if we need to buy another cot. There is a spare one at Novena house, but none at our place. I was thinking, Madison would probably outgrow her cot by next year at the latest, and we should probably just transport the spare cot over to our place if we decide to stay at home.

7. I have to pack my hospital bag and get the usual nursing stuff ready. Crap. Am so lazy this time around. Busy with work, actually...

But, one thing that I have learned from the first time round.... with babies, you really cannot plan too much in advance. Things kind of just happen, and they do sort themselves out eventually. The baby DOES grow up and we do get time back on our hands. Everything IS TEMPORARY. That's what I keep telling myself to stop me from going insane or having a panic attack at this stage!

Still.... I am dreading the sleeplessness most of all... that really takes a toll... from memory... have to survive the first 6 months...