Becoming a NAG

I realize I am becoming my mother.

Or at least I Think I am? And not the nice bits, just the nasty bits that I remember from when I was growing up.

The nagging, scolding, the impatience.

It starts at 7am. Almost every morning unless Chris happens to be around, which is mostly on weekends.

Getting them to JUST EAT BREAKFAST. Minus the dawdling, endless questions, fighting/snatching.

Then to PLEASE CHANGE OUT OF YOUR PYJAMAS.
Please BRUSH your TEETH, now...not after cutting up some paper/drawing/fighting again.
Then finally to PLEASE put your shoes on, get INTO The lift and into the car.
That takes ME 10 minutes. Takes the kids over an hour!

Yesterday Madison had her piano lessons. It's usually a mad rush for me, right after work, go home, (hopefully) pick her up (quickly), wait in the endless queue to get INTO the stupid carpark at United Square before we finally get to the studio for the 30 minute lesson.

This is how it is exasperating:
1. REFUSE to nap (which is fine on non piano days) and then be narcoleptic in front of the teacher at 5!

2. Suddenly FORGET stuff she knew. Of course the teacher looks at me quizzically and asks how come she doesn't know 'X'. ???Q!!

3. Go completely shy and lose her ability to communicate in front of the teacher. Who she already is familiar with since she was 2.

So that means trying to incorporate 10 minutes of piano in the mornings.

For some reason, trying to teach my child something draws the evil mom out of me. I have no patience and it exasperates me when she/they cannot remember something for 5 minutes. And I cannot hide my impatience.

I can't imagine what it's going to be like in another few years when I have to face the primary school stuff. I think I will go batsh!t crazy. I hate tuition myself, so it's unfair to dump tuition onto them. (right?) Or is it inevitable? Can you imagine trying to teach a 6 year old multiplication???!! OR whatever they do in school now? Don't forget spelling lists in Mandarin AND English.

They really should allow the internet in the classroom. Just teach the kid to use Google. Everyone would be happy.

I really admire people who can stay at home and do this EVERYDAY. And not become some witch b!tch while they are at it. I'm sorry... but somehow I'm not built like that. I hope my kids will understand one day. (Probably when they are mothers themselves?)