Ack! The friend that got me started doing this locum anaesthetic work has decided to stop doing it for at least the next 2 months!
This is terrible. Now I feel that I should probably continue on my own because I DO enjoy doing this ONCE a week, but then it is rather lonely not having a friendly familiar face to do it with.
Also.. it seems rather pointless to have started down this path and to give up after a mere month or so.
After last week's session, I remember more of why I decided to give up the job.
It sucks being stuck in theatre all day with another person that is barely friendly to you.
It sucks feeling less than worthy or feeling incompetent.
It probably sucks more being made to FEEL incompetent.
It's stressful wondering what the other (more senior person) wants you to do. Whether or not to strike up friendly conversation. The entire day.
But I like knowing that I can still do the stuff that I used to do. I think it's mostly having the confidence to pull it off.
Another old friend apparently is thinking of coming back to do the same... I'm hoping HE DOES!
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