Growing up

I cannot imagine that I would be writing this at 230AM in the morning.. .after a feeding/rocking session with Madison...

She is growing up at a phenomenal rate and is changing daily.. .everyday is different and I am so blessed to be able to spend so much time with her...

Tonight while rocking her and trying my best to get her to fall back asleep after a feed, I had this sudden realization that it is not long before she grows up completely and would stop needing me...while she is so tiny, and her world is so small, I fill up most of it and she is generally easy to satisfy... feed/sleep/play... no problems with discipline/behaviour etc...

Granted that things are not always smooth sailing and Chris and I do get frustrated, especially during the bad fretting sessions...but in the end it ALWAYS ends somehow...and we are fortunate to have a great support system here, 2 sets of doting grandparents, 2 excellent domestic helpers, nice home and supporting staff from work...

Parenting probably brings about the greatest satisfaction in life as well as the greatest sadness! Who would have thought that a previously child-phobic person like myself would come to this conclusion!
OH .. and another sad realization...watching her grow up marks the march of time and the fact that we are all aging (including her)...nothing is permanent and we have to truly appreciate the little things in life, and the important people around us ie our parents!

I pray she stays asleep for a little while!